22/10/10
O level is starting, im very nervous... Its as if im being judged upon by the world... Scary...
But nevertheless, I will overcome it(=
After o level, I play n play, find a job as a temporary waiter mainly working in resort world sentosa.
31/12/10
1st time to work as waiter, which is in dire shortage due to the large amount of convention held before new year. Did nt spend time with my family, instead I spent time to chat with friends while working, n also a bit of eating too
ard feb 2011
JC curriculum starts ard this time, n im still wondering why im in JC in the first place, cos im merely 2 marks away from my desired course in poly? Yet im reluctant to be going for selection to be the exclusive few initial failures to enter the course. But studying in JC is tough, yet time passes quickly, as promos are over for me now.
6/10/11, 1.10am
As im typing my post here, my mind is overwhelming with thoughts. When can I really grow up? Are my classmates really make me feel better, or worse? Can I pass my promos? Can I shake off whatever that is undesirable from me, n keep whatever that is essential for my future?
Can i be more disciplined to be able to focus on the truly impt stuffs...? etc etc
I cant even sleep properly when all these thoughts come to my mind...
Eye bags grow, tired spirit, desire to hack care of all the happenings...
In a dilemma, I become so fickle-minded, I get into trouble without solving any of them...
I cant decide for anything, sitting on the fence is the only thing i noe how to do...
If there is a place i can escape to, it will be the heaven...
