Exams over, but more to come...

Finally my CT1 is over, but i dont feel like jumping for joy...
cos i kept thinking what a failure i am...
I think everything will flung like siao...
N i had alr failed some subs, maybe its time to tink seriously abt time management...
Enough abt lying to myself le, i nid real action which is effective n efficient enough for me to stand out in O level...
Rather than stopping a while to rest, I will continue to rush, n even faster....
I will chiong towards O level, b4 ever deciding to stop n look back...
Since its not the time to look back n reflect on all the memories...
Sooner or ever, i will be trained to focus on my studies, to ignore all unhappiness...
Maybe wat my friend indirectly means is rite:

"We might as well dun nid emotions in this world"

N this can be easily proved on almost everyone, esp me...

We build our confidence from scratch, only to break down later on, then rebuild it again, only to break down again, and so on...

This is really a torturous process, but this is reality, we cant just hide in our imaginary world forever...

-I moved from place to place, going through extreme conditions, only to find a hell-

Exams, CT1, WHAT LIFE!!!

WOW.. Its in the midway of CT1, all of us must be tired out ba...
Just hope nxt wk passed super quickly, then we will enjoy our SPA^_^
(like SPA is really that fun, cos its another test...)
i was cycling happily today, yet i found the most important thing was not there...
Its the sharing of laughter, cos im by myself...
Hmm, maybe i share my smile with the public(:
The first reply will be, "whos that siao guy smiling so widely over there?" =.="
*sigh* sianzzz, study whole day, yet find no entertainment that worth the hard work...
Just like how i blew out all the air and didnt breathe in any air liddat...
U just hav to blame the same thing again n again-my life
Without being able to change anything abt it...
then the whole cycle continued...
Maybe thats why we can get old, weak then die x_x
But nevertheless, gonna chiong for the CT1, then SPA, then...
It will never be a inwards flow, only outwards flow of energy from my body...
Jiayous everyone, release all the energy for the tests):

Two days ago, i dont feel like living on, today i feel that i nid to live on...

CT1 approaching, yet i cant help but to endure all the pains...

All the tests are approaching, n i hav no idea how to settle my own problems...
I havnt really do much to improve my subs...
I havnt really recovered from the failed attempt to confess, n its kept torturing me...
I havnt had a nice sleep this week, n i hope to sleep for eternally...
I havnt been able to think forward...
Im a little tired from building up all the good memories and seeing them being destroyed one by one, only to be replaced by all the 'empty' memories...
Im tired of all the troubles that i received, and cant find a place to release them...
Im super tired of no good rest n hope i can really get what i really wished for all the end...
Im getting bored of my sux life...
Im getting angry of my own weaknesses...
Im getting upset of all the setbacks in life...
Im getting weak from doing all things without purpose and motivations...
I just hope i can be transferred from this world to another world...
I just hope....everything is over by the time i wake up from my sleep tomoro...

'lifeless' bodies, 'hopeless' souls

I really dont feel like doing anything now...My life really sux...
Is there solutions to our 'hopeless' souls?
Will our souls hear the desired song of life and future?
Will we stand together, to create the desired future?
Will we all live to see our desired future, before we leave this world for the other dimension?
Will we live to see the younger generations praising us for the better future they are given?
Will we be able to look after them from the heaven?
Just some of the questions popped up from the calm dark sky, with the bright moon, shining as if its looking after us...

feeling all confused...

After such a long time, i decided to write again...dont noe how will it last though...
Today I dont hav the happy mood on my side...
Cant sleep well b4 the day starts...
then i very angry i cant slp well to begin a fresh new week...
in the end i still try to refrain from shouting out loud...
I bear the anger of ppl smacking me 4 fun, n the flooding msg abt all the mushy things...
Of cos i dont like some of those...
but nevertheless, i still hope to reach home as fast as possible, so to finish my work as soon as possible, then to sleep...
so after sch i went home with my friends, only to realise that more r coming...
Oh, i wonder when i will really reach home...
Some weird things just happened at BPP, with me acting cynical...
After some thoughts, i decided to leave the group to go home instead...
no choice, i dont wan to blast my anger at u all, cos u all r too precious to me...