So late...

Hahas, n my first time i havnt slept at this time...
i abt to shut down my com when i decided to write this...
today i only free from 7pm onwards(hw havnt do yet...)
so watch tv n play com until 10pm then start doing my hw...
so work work work to now(0215am...)
OMG... i tink i tomoro may not wake up... but still hav to do a lot of things today so tomoro dont nid do so much...
But aft doing my stuff until so late, i realised still got a lot more to do, so i decided to go to sleep now...Nites(:

JUST CHIONG AR!!!

Some times back, i was worrying abt whether the sch will finish the syllabus b4 exam, n if i can conclude all revision b4 the exam arrived... I worried so much that even my friends found more white hair on me...OMG, im getting old from worrying too much...
But one day, i suddenly realised when im not tinking much, i can chiong my revision much better than b4... Since then, i told myself that i must not worry too much, so as not to waste time worrying... I told myself that any other problems i will only face them in future, so i was angry when was told that i nid to go CCA... I decided to take the chances to scold the sec1 cadets abt their beahaviour, meanwhile im just releasing my anger... i became short-tempered these days. but luckily i nv show them in front of my friends...So i must chiong my revision, for the sake of passing my exams n eventually getting the distinctions needed(:
Note:Nadira, i hoped u can find some solutions from ur own problems(:

So cool...

Finally, a cold weather today... i longed for this day when i can sleep well, but in the end, im at sch attending lsn... sometimes, when i looked at chers, i feel like smashing the tables n leave the class... but i bear the pain n eventually 4get it... Today my eyes turn cloudy n i kinda cant see things for a while): but everything recovers(: n why r there so much remedials to attend??? then still got my cca... Im so not looking forward to tomoro...
but i must preserve, no matter wat, to get to my wanted future...

Btw, im enjoying this final holiday a lot n is ready to rock n roll for the eoy n for the future(:

Burning with strength...

No matter who or wat we r, we will always having a burning soul within us, just like how the pheonix rises in burning passion...
But for some ppl, we will always be finding sth to fill up our burning passion, as if it is placed somewhere else... meanwhile, we will be walking around, maybe forever, finding the hope that may not exist at all... or we just live as zombies...
But no worries, we live in this to find the things that we looked forward to, n that's what that will fill up my soul... burning passion from our hearts, even though we r burning from nothingness...

Therefore, we must fight on, just like how pheonix burns with passion!!!

oh...i cant stay on com for long nowadays... n the exams r approaching... i feel so old...

WAT??? why r u all gathering???

Almost every nites i hav dreams...
but yesterday's dream very special 1...
cos i see the old man again...
this time i was shocked abt the ppl that he bring along...
he brought ppl like zhenghao, wendy, etc
OMG, 1st time the old man who gives advices in my dreams bring ppl
then everyone talk...
wth, morning i still rmb the sentences
then now i 4got alr...
that why i morning got nothing to say, cos i still wondering wat to do abt those words that they said...

CCA again...

omg, tomoro nid bring uni again???
im going to hate my chers for calling only some of us to bring uni...
then the rest leh, pt-kit...
i tell myself, i wan pon... in the end leh, cos all friends nv pon, so i hav to go lor, physically though
My spirit will float around singapore until the end 0_0
omg, why nid bring uni again??? i hate this cca, but will still work hard until the end...(:
so dont worry, i will try not to pon lor... but if given the large amt of time aft friday's schooling, i can do almost everything... i hav to tink tink tink...*sigh*

wan to die alr...

With its blade, it will protect the good from bad...

today's really my unlucky day...

-classroom got new 'camera'...

-after sch i called to stay back

-they kept making fun of me...

-my tuition postponed

-go home still nid do all the housework...(who ask my mama go out...)

-my bro nagging to take over com again, of cos more chaotic cos no mama to stop us...

-oh, n the list goes on...

but i still noe that these must happen sooner or later...my damn unlucky day...zzz

song for today:Toki wo Kizamu Uta

Actual song:
ochite iku suna dokei bakari miteru yosakasama ni sureba hora mata hajimaru yokizanda dake susumu jikan niitsuka boku mo haireru kana
kimi dake ga sugisatta saka no tochuu haatataka na hidamari ga ikutsu mo dekitetaboku hitori ga koko de yasashiiatataka sa wo omoi kaeshiteru
kimi dake wo kimi dake wosuki de ita yokaze de me ga nijindetooku naru yo
itsumademo oboeterunanimo kamo kawattemohitotsu dake hitotsu dakearifureta mono dakedomisete yaru kagayaki ni michita sono hitotsu dakeitsumademo itsumademo mamotte iku
hada samui hi ga tsudzuku mou haru nanonimesamashi dokei yori hayaku okita asasaninbun no asa gohan wo tsukuru kimi gasoko ni tatte iru
kimi dake ga kimi dake gasoba ni inai yokinou made sugu soba de boku wo miteta yo
kimi dake wo kimi dake wosuki de ita yokimi dake to kimi dake toutau uta dayoboku tachi no boku tachi nokizanda toki dayokatahou dake tsudzuku nanteboku ha iyada yo
itsumade mo oboeterukono machi ga kawattemodore dake no kanashimi to deau koto ni nattemomisete yaru honto ha tsuyokatta toki no kotosaa iku yo arukidasu saka no michi wo
Translation in English:
I just stared at the falling sand in the hourglass.If I were to flip it…it’ll start all over again.In this time that just passes through…I wonder if I too can enter it.
In that hill you just passed by during your way home,plenty of sunny spots have appeared.Here, tenderly, I alonereminisce these warm feelings.
Just you…it’s only youwho I loved.My eyes, watery from the wind,makes you more distant…
I’ll always remembereven if everything were to change.Just one, just onemundane thing…but I’ll show you, this one thing full of radiance,I’ll always and forever protect it.
These cold days continue…even though it’s spring already.In the morning I wake up earlier than the alarm clock,you stand there, making breakfastfor three.
Just you…it’s only youwho isn’t next to me.Until yesterday, you were there next to me…looking at me.
Just you…it’s only youwho I loved.For you…just for youI’ll sing this song.It’s our…our ownpassing time.Continuing to be alone…I don’t want that.
I’ll always remember,even if this town were to change.No matter how much sadness I meet,I’ll show you, the time when I was truly strong.Here I go, I walk to that hill.

Note:the song ends here...

The meaning of this song is similar to the storyline of the anime, Clannad...

It's the tunes n the meaning that i liked this song(:

Pictures(:

Today's nothing to say, so some pics to enlighten my blog:

My favourite pokemon,

Jirachi

No matter how old is this cartoon, i still like this one:)

Kirby The Dango family(Rice balls)

(I tink some heard this old items b4...)

the ads for a new series of Clannad,

Clannad after story

I wondered if there is another series of it...

so it ends here...

One day b4 term 4 starts...

One wk just passed liddat... n i hav to face the chers again...
The holiday was ok, except with a few irritating days which i hav to return to sch n the stupid hws!!!
the stack of hw... n then got more lessons...
but i found a lot of ans during the holidays...
i found my goals, short term targets n then my past...
at first i not happy with my ans to the past, but by looking at my friends now, i decided to focus on the future, as well as to remember the past well, cos they r my standing blocks, no matter wat the past is...
last time im lost in everything, now i found something that i wan to hav, n that's my purpose(:
even though it may be new to me, but at least it allows me to a path...
Floating around the present world is not enough, we must move on, to the future, to the future self!!!

9 is so shoo!

Today i decided to invite my bro to watch movie called 9
even though the title a little weird, but i like the show...
the storyline quite nice, but the ending leave me with a lot of ???
n then i come home at 10pm n my mama nv scold me...
then ask papa if can use com until midnight he agreed...
i was shocked, happy but i tink that they r just going to break the promise anyway...
or is it that they decided to change or...(i dont feel like saying this...)

Why i hav to do these???

Today i really diao mei... even though i go with mama to IMM hav a lot of fun, at home, i just got scolded until i dont tink my soul's in the house alr...
so today i gonna write a lot of the ****ing things i wan to say...
1st, my chao parents. U tink u can buy me by bringing me out n hav fun, as well as offering me repair 4 my phone? wishful tinking, i only wan to be alone, not to be disturbed by u two... even though i hav to thank them 4 helping to repair my phone, but i hav that feeling they r trying to buy my trust back... n DONT FIGHT EVERYDAY, IM TIRED OF IT... i feel like running out of the house, but i continued to bear, cos i nid to be patient, as the saying goes, 'ten years is still enough to hav revenge'.
2nd, HOW MANY TIMES MUST I TELL U TO STOP FIGHTING WITH MAMA OVER COMPUTER??? i can leave u to die, cos i also dont care abt u alr... wat i wan is u to SHUT UP, U BASTARD!!!
3rd, i thank u for this msg:
"Letting go is painful, but not letting go is more painful.
Controlling your anger hurts you, but not controlling your anger hurts others.
Forgiving is forgetting, and forgetting is forgiving."
at least i stop scolding this 4 once... but can u tell me wat i shld do??? i dont dare to hurt the loved ones, nor can i forget or let go of the hatred...T_T
i wan to cry alr... even though i will still be hoping...

So cramped up...

Omg... these days very busy... everyday still got lsn, then go out till 6pm then go home... Of cos it's not finished, still got hw n revision to do... oh, my mama scolding me to got to sleep le... nites talk abt the fun things tomoro...

Anime: Clannad

wow!!! i love this show a lot... esp the Dango family n their storyline(:
enough abt the emo thingy, i watch this aft my friend introduced to me a long time ago...):
starting from today i kinda chiong 6 episodes until now...
i love the anime, even though the animation a little old-fashioned...
it's like looking back into the past...(:
haha, nowadays most of the new animes r more for the females, so hav to adapt lor...
dont like to watch anime like bleach, cos they only fight n fight, no fun to keep watching it...
whatever, i tink the anime got only 25 episodes then i move to toradora again(cos i only watch 1 episode of toradora b4 )

Where am I running towards to???

ok... today just another day... recently got scolded by parents cos my results sux...): then my bro n mama go all quiet... so im using this com now... (wat i do everytime...) then just now, my friend msg me say that tomoro nid to bring npcc uni so can test the sec 1s... i was feeling down at that time, tinking of how to replace my lack of love from my parents(my parents nv talked much to me, sooner i tink i nv talk to my parents...). My bro n mama kept fighting over trivial matters everyday except today... looks like a new chapter is born, a challenge that i nv seen b4... a lot of things happened these days, but nevertheless, i will be standing up high... ok then, i was angry when i received the msg, kinda of tinking to smash that cher... he can call sec 1 nco or HO for this, why choose me when my drills sux... tomoro i wan find them then discuss... actually when i go 4 cca, my soul is always floating outside, trying to find wat i wan... back in sec 1, i joined npcc cos of my friends, not because im interested in it... even if i regreted abt it, i hav to finish the 4 years ordeal... hope to brack the 'contract' as soon as possible...
can someone guide me back to the path???