Two days ago, i dont feel like living on, today i feel that i nid to live on...

CT1 approaching, yet i cant help but to endure all the pains...

All the tests are approaching, n i hav no idea how to settle my own problems...
I havnt really do much to improve my subs...
I havnt really recovered from the failed attempt to confess, n its kept torturing me...
I havnt had a nice sleep this week, n i hope to sleep for eternally...
I havnt been able to think forward...
Im a little tired from building up all the good memories and seeing them being destroyed one by one, only to be replaced by all the 'empty' memories...
Im tired of all the troubles that i received, and cant find a place to release them...
Im super tired of no good rest n hope i can really get what i really wished for all the end...
Im getting bored of my sux life...
Im getting angry of my own weaknesses...
Im getting upset of all the setbacks in life...
Im getting weak from doing all things without purpose and motivations...
I just hope i can be transferred from this world to another world...
I just hope....everything is over by the time i wake up from my sleep tomoro...

'lifeless' bodies, 'hopeless' souls

I really dont feel like doing anything now...My life really sux...
Is there solutions to our 'hopeless' souls?
Will our souls hear the desired song of life and future?
Will we stand together, to create the desired future?
Will we all live to see our desired future, before we leave this world for the other dimension?
Will we live to see the younger generations praising us for the better future they are given?
Will we be able to look after them from the heaven?
Just some of the questions popped up from the calm dark sky, with the bright moon, shining as if its looking after us...

feeling all confused...

After such a long time, i decided to write again...dont noe how will it last though...
Today I dont hav the happy mood on my side...
Cant sleep well b4 the day starts...
then i very angry i cant slp well to begin a fresh new week...
in the end i still try to refrain from shouting out loud...
I bear the anger of ppl smacking me 4 fun, n the flooding msg abt all the mushy things...
Of cos i dont like some of those...
but nevertheless, i still hope to reach home as fast as possible, so to finish my work as soon as possible, then to sleep...
so after sch i went home with my friends, only to realise that more r coming...
Oh, i wonder when i will really reach home...
Some weird things just happened at BPP, with me acting cynical...
After some thoughts, i decided to leave the group to go home instead...
no choice, i dont wan to blast my anger at u all, cos u all r too precious to me...